It was the last quarter of the last game. The team had proven to be tough over the long season. Although tired, the players pressed on continuing with their passing and shooting. The Panthers stacked for Asher. He broke away towards the basket. After receiving the pass, he turned to eye the basket. He raised his arms and released the ball for the shot. And SWISH! He scored!
At least I imagine it happened this way. Asher's basket. The one and only of the season.
While this excitement happened at the church down the road, I rummaged through the storage room at home sorting camping gear and delighting in the growing pile of items to take to Goodwill. Asa slept soundly upstairs during his usual afternoon napping time. This precious nap time was the reason I stayed home and also the reason that
I missed it.
I missed the big moment of Asher's basket. For the million other moments I have been there. Throughout soccer season, I refused to miss a game hoping that week would be the one when Asher would score a goal. We are still waiting for that first goal.
Through basketball season, our family prioritized the games. We all went, we all cheered for the team, and encouraged Asher.
And then when it happened, when he made a basket, I missed it.
I don't think Asher minded too much that I wasn't there. He might have been happy enough to just tell me about it.
As a mom who has prioritized my kids enough to stay home with them full-time, I can't help but kick myself. I can't be there for everything. But I sure want to. I would love to witness all of their successes, cheer them through all of the failures, and celebrate every victory.
Realistically I know there are a billion moments I will miss. Little ones and maybe some big ones. It's part of the growing up and separating away. Seven years ago, I felt his every movement and knew everything that went into and out of his body. I can't say I'm nostalgic for all of that feeding and diaper changing, and surely someday I will not miss the many hours of sitting at practices and games.
Through this separating and moving on, I simply want to remain there for his life. I want to experience it, rejoice in it, shed tears when we need to. Ultimately I don't want to miss out on my boy. Whether he retells the story to me, or I get to experience the moment in person, I hope there will be more moments of being there than missing it.
Soccer season will start soon and I will once again be in the front row at every game in a absolute refusal to again admit that I missed it.
At least I imagine it happened this way. Asher's basket. The one and only of the season.
While this excitement happened at the church down the road, I rummaged through the storage room at home sorting camping gear and delighting in the growing pile of items to take to Goodwill. Asa slept soundly upstairs during his usual afternoon napping time. This precious nap time was the reason I stayed home and also the reason that
I missed it.
I missed the big moment of Asher's basket. For the million other moments I have been there. Throughout soccer season, I refused to miss a game hoping that week would be the one when Asher would score a goal. We are still waiting for that first goal.
Through basketball season, our family prioritized the games. We all went, we all cheered for the team, and encouraged Asher.
And then when it happened, when he made a basket, I missed it.
I don't think Asher minded too much that I wasn't there. He might have been happy enough to just tell me about it.
As a mom who has prioritized my kids enough to stay home with them full-time, I can't help but kick myself. I can't be there for everything. But I sure want to. I would love to witness all of their successes, cheer them through all of the failures, and celebrate every victory.
Realistically I know there are a billion moments I will miss. Little ones and maybe some big ones. It's part of the growing up and separating away. Seven years ago, I felt his every movement and knew everything that went into and out of his body. I can't say I'm nostalgic for all of that feeding and diaper changing, and surely someday I will not miss the many hours of sitting at practices and games.
Through this separating and moving on, I simply want to remain there for his life. I want to experience it, rejoice in it, shed tears when we need to. Ultimately I don't want to miss out on my boy. Whether he retells the story to me, or I get to experience the moment in person, I hope there will be more moments of being there than missing it.
Soccer season will start soon and I will once again be in the front row at every game in a absolute refusal to again admit that I missed it.